Okay, u know what? I am getting older. Haiya, this is seriously stressing me out. I really really hate being a teenagers and now I am about to turn 17. Specifically, 31 March next year. So, what should I do? I don't want to grow up. Why? It just hard.
Okay, if you are a mature 17 years old girl, you have to act very politely to everyone which I AM NOT. By means, I HAVE to DECREASED my dorky side and show-off more acceptable persona. Which I REALLY CAN'T. It just to hard being a grown up. People expect more and more from u and u yourself barely able to reach the expectation.
Another thing, I tend to have A LOT of RESPONSIBILITIES towards Bendahara, Band, batch and myself. How the hell am I supposed to cope up with those thing? Everyone know how tiring it is to hold the MT position in an organization. And out of all people, I am the lucky person. I am not complaining about what to come, but truthfully saying, I am worried about it.
In Bendahara, I am part of the MT together with Faaiqa, Fatinajwa and Nazlia. Out of 4 of us, I am the most worst in sports while they are the best sportsmen in school. How can I ever be on par with three of them? Not to compare with the other members of Bendahara who are purely active. This is ridiculous.
Next, I am the vice president for Band. Since, I've been comfortable with that position, it was quite relaxing. But everything goes wrong when the president was elected as one of the prefect on the last day of school. Now, it gonna be the competition of who is better. I was thinking hard about this.
I have no idea what's going on my mind right now. Plus, thinking of SPM next year that gonna be my life turning point, I can't make it. I don't know if I can stay strong suffering alone next year. I do which she is still by my side. At least, she is someone that I can talk to. At least, she gonna help me. I really wish she will be there next year. *Sigh~
I'm off. This had been a hurtful thinking.
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